things you know, you've learned
Sunday, April 29, 2007
im a very trusting person. i hate to think people could do harm to anyone without a good reason... or at least a reason. everybody has a reason to do something. you cant just be that bored and say, "hey, there's nothing to do so why dont i ruin this person for the time being" for me, that's unheard of.so there i was chillin' when my cell beeped a message. one message after another... and that was enough overthrow a nice dvd movie, and i bet even a "house" marathon. but it got worse, people were asking if that was me on friendster and if i was available for... oh, you dont wanna know since i always wanted to run a PG-level (Parental Guidance needed) blog. men started calling me, wanted to meet up, asking for you-know-what session. and all i can say was what the hell was happening!
i had to do something so i asked one guy how "we" supposedly met. he said he's chatting with me that very moment. like what?!!!! i asked the irc server, channel and "my so-called nickname". i was online ... or the person who was pretending to be me. wow! talk about being an instant celebrity. now i remembered why i deleted my friendster account years back. tsk!
the rest of the story is confidential but this blog would remind me of it. i feel so awkward trusting people now. they just get back at you, bite you real hard... or the pain exaggerates only coz its unexpected. you trust... they lie. like house say, "everybody lies". but then, i think people lie so others wont be hurt. so my mind keeps on asking the Why's just coz i hate to point fingers.
i hurt now... whoever that person will feel the same way if not now, then someday. fate is only unfair until it gets even. and i believe it will, by then fate will be called karma.
thing is, my friendster email so at they wont be able to bother much unless they know my last name. i'll change numbers by june so no biggie really. whats really funny is that they find my photos nice. i didnt know i was attractive... or maybe there are men who are just desperate. hahaha!
by h2Omelon GurL @ 11:37 AM with 0 comments
i'm rollin'...
Sunday, April 08, 2007
i've been driving around for the past few days. but today was really special. after my driving lessons, i realized that driving is fun.yup. weird things have been happening to me but at least now i know im my same old self with a plus. i can change... enjoy the things that i dont like in the past. funny eh? but driving tends to relax my mind and focus on the streets, especially if professional drivers keeps honking their horns regardless if you're moving or the car's engine stopped. i know how tempting to do these stuff to a car with a "Warning: Student Driver" sign on it. c'mmon admit it guys, you've done that at least once in your life.
so i was saying... if i can change the things that i like. maybe i can do the reverse of it... dislike the things i like. hmmm like be able to squash a walking cockroach... or shower together with some naked strangers in a spa(women only ofcourse).
you dont know how comforting to know that i can do just that. now i know i still have the strength of mind... to control my emotions. i need this kind of flexibility to protect myself. tonight has been fruitful to me. i've confirm that... i'm still me, a bit broken... yes but surviving and thats the most important part of my self-discovery. friends are not always there for me, so i have to do things on my own.... like driving for instance.
we are individually complete on our own. we only search for someone who will complement us in life. if ever i'm meant to walk this life alone, its fulfilling to know that i can do it.
-------Excepts from my driving sessions:
Instructor: Ma'am marunong po ba kayong magovertake?
Student: Hindi ko pa kaya no.
Instructor: O sige ma'am. Intayin na lang natin yung pedicab. Dito lang tayo drive sa likod nya.
Happy Easter everyone!!!
by h2Omelon GurL @ 7:52 PM with 1 comments
